Monday, September 16, 2013

All is Well

When I moved away from home for the first time Fall of 2004 I would call home often- okay- a lot. And when I spoke with my mom and asked her how she was- she would always say, “all is well”.  That could have been true, but with all the crazy, terrible and hard things that were going on at home- I knew, “all is well” wasn’t the case, and for whatever reason she had- my mom would say “all is well” anyway.

You know- life is made to be hard. We are meant to be tried and tested. I feel like the last three Sunday’s have been filled with the inspirational messages to carry on regardless of it all, but more importantly to find joy in the journey. That the whole reason we go through our trials is to test us, to make us a stronger person after the trial than we were before. To be a bush that is constantly cut down and pruned to later in the spring have fruitful blossoms. I can say with conviction that this last year has changed us and thankfully- for the better- isn’t the Lord smart?
A year ago around today we were unemployed, then right before Halloween- Shane got a job- but we still hugely crippled financially, add on top- we still had a colicky baby (that lasted for 9 months), and all other “joys” that came along—in other words- this year was Hell.  There have been multiple times when I have looked up to the sky and screamed- “Why?” And have thought, “When is this trial over?” or “When, oh when- can I start enjoying my baby?” “Where is the light at the end of the tunnel?” And things continued to get worse- to even more worse- and then in June- we finally got a shred of light in our hardship of a year.

 If you’ve read this far- I’m impressed. I’ll try to keep this short. :D

We had no money, no savings, nothing. Rent was going up substantially at the end of the month, maxed out credit card and we had to move- but to where? Shane and I literally sat down one night and wrote out 4 options: 1- The kids and I move to SLC while Shane works for the summer and we asses after that. 2- We all move into Shane’s parents guest room (in S.G) and share one room with our baby that can’t sleep with any noise (the joy!) 3- We move in with Shane’s grandma (also in S.G) but had more room for our family. Or 4- Expect a miracle. In this category we wrote what we required: 3 bed, 2 bath, backyard, a park or pool nearby (with Shane always taking the car-this is essential) and a garage would be nice.

We fasted and prayed like crazy for weeks asking questions and seeking direction for our cloudy future. In the end- we knew we needed to stay in St. George, but didn’t know how anything would come to pass-and we waited for answers- that eventually came in one irritating and frustrating phrase: “Just wait and see”.  Continuing to seek inspiration from the Spirit, I felt impressed to apply for housing that exceeded all of our requirements, that was affordable, but almost had a year long waiting list. A week after dropping off the paper work and two weeks before we had to move out of our apartment, I was called by our current rental place on Friday and they asked if we could move in on Monday. I immediately said yes, hung up the phone and balled buckets of tears. The Lord provided for us in a big way, not only were we getting option #4 to live on our own and to have a place of our own, but rent was also extremely affordable. And several months after this little miracle, and two weeks ago today- Shane was promoted to a salary position at his current job! The Lord knew what we needed and came through for us in all aspects of the word. It is an incredible feeling to be the recipient of such a life- changing miracle. To know, we did everything in my power to make something come to pass, and the Lord made up the difference.
There’s a scripture somewhere that says something to the effect of…. You shall receive your blessings, after the trial of your faith— I know it to be true. I know that our faith and especially trust in the Lord’s timetable has been a HUGE struggle for me. And yet, I have learned, when I put my life, or my problem in the Lord’s hands, ask for help and have faith that he will help me - I know it will come to pass. When the Lord orchestrates our lives according to His will- things miraculously fall into place and it’s incredible!

We’re not completely out of the hole- our dang washer died this week (cha-ching) our utility bill is outrageous this month (cha-cha-ching) and car registration is due (cha-ching) and among all the other things that make up what we call life…it’s going to be tight for awhile. In the end, I know without a shadow of a doubt, that our needs are going to be met. That everything will work out the best way that it should. And when we submit to the Lord’s will- he will take care of us- better even than we thought we needed.

So yeah- I guess you could say-“All is Well” at our house too.

Monday, May 27, 2013

The Best Money We Ever Spent….

  Let me be honest, after a year of soooo much stress and hardship and- well- Hell. Shane and I decided it was time for a break, a much needed reprieve.

We recieved a substantial amount of tax return money, so we took a bit and bought a fantastic vacation package: 4 day, 3 nights hotel with a 2 day, 1 park ticket for the four of us to Disneyland! And I can honestly say, I have not been happier in the last 10 months than I was las tmonth while at Disneyland. Here are just a few of the 200 some-odd- pictures from our incredible trip!

We decided not to tell Lexie about our trip until we got there and just hop in the car after work Monday night and drive to Cali. The next morning we got on a shuttle to Disneyland and everyone was dressed in Disney attire and Lexie was really confused since we were going to the "beach". It didn't dawn on her unitl we picked up our tickets and got to this point-- where we were. But really, she didn't know what Disneyland entailed until she met the princesses and it was priceless trip!
Lexie's showing off her "First Time" badge
First visit was to the Princess Fantasy Faire- it was adorable filled with three princesses for one line. (Awesome!) Our first princess of the day was Cinderella, it was perfect. And suddenly my talkitive, confident little girl became bashful in front of her idols. It was adorable!  We walked through the Sleeping Beauty Castle and she begged to do it again.
First ride of the day- Snow white-and it was scary. :( We were warned it was a scary ride, but weren't convinced- hmmm yeah- it was scary. Lexie bawled in the middle until the end- super sad!

After getting over the scary ride we took her to the tea cups- and she was exstatic to go for a ride.

Seeing Tangled
 Meeting Mickey and Minnie for the first time. She was super excited and kissed Mickey! Took us by surprise so we missed a pic. :( But, it was darling.. As we were left Mickey's house Lexie said, "Mom why doesn't Mickey talk?" ha ha.

 The lines were super short for the characters and every ride we went.  At 7- an hour before closing, we walked right on Pirates of the Caribeen and stayed on for a second ride because no one was there. The kids loved the water ride and it was nice to give our legs a break. Then we ran over to ride Winnie the Poo and I noticed there was no line for Splash Mountain AND Lexie was tall enough to go! So- Shane and I both took her (Different times cuz Link was too small) walking right on the ride. It was awesome. :D So Link went on the Poo ride 3 times that night. ha ha.
 Best princess of the day! Spent tons of time talking, playing hide and seek with the mechanical bear brothers with Lexie. After 15 minutes- Merida asked us to bring Lexie back so she could walk Merida "home". Total wish come true for Lexie and for me (I wanted her to have a moment like this too!) Again, brough tme to tears how incredible this day was!
It was a fantastic first day. Lexie was incredibly cute with all of the princess. Talking to all of them, singing songs, playing hide and seek, pinkie promises. And the kids did wonderfully too. Awww- such an incredible first day!
On our second day Lexie was bouncing off the walls at breakfast, and on the shuttle to go back to visit the princesses and their castle and this time- I remembered her princess dress. (yea for me. :D) Oh- the excitement when we met up with Arora first thing and they had matching dresses. And then Ariel played hide and seek with Lexie! Literally left her area and hid- the video is adorable! And Cinderella- it was fantastic.  
 While we waited for the Tangled short theatre show (totally recomment going!) to start Lexie and I went searching for Jasmine and Aladdin and they weren't there. :( And then we spotted him walking- Lexie screamed running after him and he whipped around for a picture. Made her incrediblly happy- as you can see...
 Can't tell you how many times we went on this ride over two days.
 Lexie now knows the song by heart- Darling!
 "Mom, I need all these babies!"
 Surprisingly, one of Lexie's favorite ride- Dumbo. I think it was because they gave us a feather?
 While we ate our picnic dinner, Lexie played in this dumbo for quite some time...
We saw sooooo many character before noon!
 She loves the teacup ride- as do we. :D
 Zapped! We planned ahead and took the baby carrier and Link slept for 2 hours while we stood in line for Tink and other characters. Totally saved our arms-Yippee!
 Naturally, when you go to Disneyland, you get something to remind you of your trip. And I wanted the kids suvienors to be something we could only buy at Disneyland. Therefore- we got them their first Minnie and Mickey. And yes, yet again, I cried after I purchased them and gave these to them. I mean- look at their faces! I tear up, just remebering this time. Ahh so blessed to have been able to go!
 The parade was pretty cool, and Lexie waved like crazy trying to get the princesses to smile and wave at her. And then- Ariel waved at her! Look at her expression- brought me to tears. Such an incredibly happy time for all of us.
 Finally, parade through we had 40 minutes before the park closed for the night. We knew from the night before that there would be no wait for Splash Mountian (my fav ride) and asked Lexie which ride she would like to go on for the last time. "Do you want to go on the log ride or Winnie the Poo?" Without even hesitating Lexie shouted, "I want to get soaking wet!" We dashed to the back of the park and we all went on the ride one last time. Although the pic is terrible- Lexie wasn't scared-she loved every minute and has that song memorized too.
Lexie actually went on Splash Mountain 4 times and Tea cups at least 5 times and never went on Winnie the Poo the entire 2 days! ha ha. We seriously went to Disneyland at the perfect time!
The other reason we went on our trip-

 Happy 7 year anniversary to us! Wish we would have taken better pictures of us...
Tuckered out after our day 2 of Disneyland.

Our last day in California- we went to Hunington Beach for the day- it was freezing and the kiddies did not like the cold water- Link sobbed.  We did however, make a sandcastle for each Princess Lexie met because she promised them she would. :D

 Seriously they best trip ever! It was too short, glad we did two days in Disneyland, but next time we'll have to make it a week long trip! Seriously, we can't wait to go again!

With the stresses of life constantly hanging over our head it is hard to find joy in our trial we are going through, but when we went to Disneyland there were sooo many times where I had tears streaming down my face out of gratitude to be where we were. ( I know, I'm a bit of a baby) But,  I honestly feel like this trip was a gift from my Father in Heaven saying, "I know what you're going through. You can make it a bit longer, hang in there!" Times are still stressful at our house, but when we get down we then start talking about our trip.

The memories come flooding back and Lexie will squeal and start jabbering about one of her many memories that usually takes Shane and I by surprise. (The details she remembers!!) And I don't write this post to brag, or to convince anyone to spend money they don't have. What we did was selfish, perhaps even reckless, however we still believe it was the best money we've ever spent.

Wednesday, April 10, 2013

2013 Orchard Pics

As tradition dictates... we went out to the orchards to take pictures... Here's the years of our Sissy-Pants growing up! Can't believe how much she's changed in the years. Love it!

6 months
18 months
2.5 yrs

3.5 yrs

The fabulous photographer/editor/mother/friend (did I forget anything??) Katie and Lexie's besty- Jenna were adorable in the fields.
Here are the favorites from this year....

Here's some favorite family pictures...
Giving Daddy Kisses

Couldn't resist getting them matching shirts- I mean honestly?!

Happy Springtime! 

Saturday, March 30, 2013

Reaching Out

Some of you may have noticed my absence; in fact it's been about a 9 month absence.... you guessed it- it's related to having Linkin. And soooo here we go:

I'm reaching out to you professional mothers; the mother's who seem to have it all under control, sunshine and rainbows all day- every day. Perfect kids, perfect babies, what is your secret???

Link is hard. I hate documenting this on the blog, but seriously, I'm struggling. I feel weak admitting this. My life in general is kicking my but. Being unemployed (huge, long story for later) balancing life as a mother to two, Link having colic- still-and extremely sensitive about sound/light, wifely duties, prego-post weight, threat of moving with a career change, debt hovering over our heads... the list goes on and on and on. Oh and for kicks, let's add- day light savings!! Totally threw off my groove and my kids schedule which took my months to finally balance out.

Advice column:

Having more than one kid- how do you keep the baby asleep with a toddler running around the house? Lexie as a baby was easy, and the moment I put her down for bed I was clanging pots and pans, playing my music loud I was not quiet with her = she sleeps through almost everything. Link on the other hand, as a baby he wouldn't stop crying and I did anything, ANYTHING to prevent him from waking up- hence we were quiet, but not that quiet. And yet, you walk into his room- he's awake! He could be dead asleep and then he'll hear Lexie's voice, even her sneeze- he's up! I have the fan on in his room, the bathroom fan on across the hall and heck, we live next to the freeway- it's not that quiet at our house and yet- he's up! Advice ladies... how did you help your baby be less sensitive?

Link has an older spirit; he's advanced for his age. He wants to move, crawl and run after his sister bad, and to make matters worse- no cuddling- like ever! And before he could crawl, all he would do is cry at me all day long. You should see my arm muscles! Try lugging around 20 pounds (he weighs 10 lbs less than Lexie!) of dead weight everywhere you go! Now that he's crawling I have noticed he's happier, but during that same time- 6 teeth decided to come! Which then led to emergency weaning because his razor sharp teeth were drawing blood- yeah! (Note sarcasm here)Sometimes I just feel like screaming- Could I just catch a break?

I'm exhausted, I'm tired. Ladies what is your secret? What pulls you through the day? For me, it's knowing my hubby will be home in __X__ hours; sometimes it's Lexie, but mostly, its prayer. I pray constantly. In fact, I don't think I ever end a prayer; it's always in my heart.

Having two kids is kicking my but and yet I know, it can always be soooooo much harder than it already is. My baby could be diagnosed with some illness, an unknown problem or have cancer..... I KNOW things can always be much worse, but the reason I share this-- the little problems, such as a baby not sleeping and always crying or a toddler being naughty (never my Lexie though!) to let all those mommies out there who think they are the only one struggling to know that I, the mighty Morgan am struggling too- but I'm going to be okay. I keep telling myself, "Everyday gets better," and "Tomorrow is a new day" and the more I say it- the more I will believe it!

On a final note of lessons learned:

·         I know this “trial” is temporary.

·         I know that my Savior loves me and would never give me a trial or hardship too hard to handle. So I know that I can handle this a bit longer.

·         I know the reason Lexie, my bubbly full of life and happiness girlie, came first was to help me get through this trial. Link can be in a total tizzy (wherever)- and she is the one who can pull him out of it and turn the crabby/hyper ventilating baby into a happy baby.

·         I know that Link is trying to teach my compassion, patience and most of all- “rolling with the punches” and believe me- I’m learning these lessons as FAST as I can so we can move on from this trial.

·         I know, in the end- Linkin is going to be fine, I will be fine and yes- we’ll have another baby- but not today, this month, or this year.

·         I know that if you ask for help, and understanding from others- you will get it.

·         My faith has increased, the power of prayer strengthened and my desire to read my scriptures daily has returned.

·         I know that by drawing closer to the Savior, our home will become a Heaven on Earth the home where my baby will feel safe.

I can make it through this trial and so can you! Loves and hugs to all those who still might be reading… and really- any experiences or helpful advice is certainly welcomed below!

Sunday, December 23, 2012

Christmas Letter 2012

Christmas is coming and the goose is getting fat... (now I've got the song in your head right??)

Dear Friends and Family,

I can't believe we're a few short days away from Christmas. Truly, I'm like a little kid when it comes to Christmas. Can't sleep all night on Christmas Eve- I just toss and turn. I can't wait to open presents, or rather for my family to open their presents.  I love this season, I love the focus we get to spend on our Savior Jesus Christ and I love my family traditions and creating these new ones with our little family.

Last night we tried to go to Tuachan for the live nativity show and the line was super duper long (FYI: now you pay and need tickets to get inside) so we couldn't make it to the show without waiting another hour in the cold. And yes, it gets cold down we took some pics then walked to the car.

Bundled up at Tuachan with Shane's parents
  Lexie was extremely upset that she couldn't see Jesus Christ in his show and started to cry on the drive home. As we were driving on Skyline Drive (the road overlooking the city) she could see the St. George Temple and asked if Jesus was at his house and if we could go and see him. What a brilliant idea girlie! And so, last night we went to the temple and walked around checking out the Christmas lights and watching the short nativity presentation. We went inside the visitors center and saw the statue of Christ and Lexie knew who he was and pointed to his hands and feet. We listened to the message and we felt the spirit- the true spirit of Christmas. The sister Missionaries gave Lexie a pass a long card with a picture of Jesus and she held tight to the card all night which is also on our fridge at home now.

At the St. George Temple waving to baby Jesus. 
All night she looked at Christ's picture ( You can see she's holding the card in the pic above) and said that she loved him and missed him, but the most heartwarming part was when she said, "Mom, I know Jesus knows and loves me too!" I was an emotional wreck by the end of the night (FYI: feeling the spirit so strong does that to hormonal mothers) so all I could do was agree with my little girl.

I feel blessed to have the opportunity to be a mother, and have a husband that takes such great care of us. I'm grateful for my darling family, that I can spend time with them at home, playing, crafting and most importantly teaching them. I'm trying to be the best mommy I can for my kiddies and be the kind of person I know Heavenly Father wants me to be and I'm so grateful my efforts are valued. I'm grateful for this Christmas season that I can teach Lexie about our Savior and the importance of thinking of Christ and I can tell that she listens, understands (She's such a good girl!) and the foundation to her testimony of Jesus Christ is beginning.

Christmas is special. This year we spend Christmas with a new member of the family- Linkin and his presence only brings us closer to the slice of heaven he just came from. What a blessing to be here on this Earth with our children and family!

May all of you, near and far, be safe and know of the love we have for you.

Until next year blogging world- Happy Christmas and have a fantastic New Year Celebration!

Love the Dewey Family

Friday, October 19, 2012

With the times...

This is the 100th blog post! So it seems fitting to blog on my phone- cuz I can!  You see: I'm super cool- got the iPhone 4 for free cool- and discovered how awesome my phone and camera is...enjoy!
We love Halloween!

Little skeleton glow worm

Watching Trevor's Soccer Game

Lexie's Self Portrait
Wednesday's Park Day

Friday's Park Day

Link finally fits in the onesie Auntie Jesi gave him at the baby shower

Love these Kiddies!