You know- life is made to be hard. We are meant to be tried and tested. I feel like the last three Sunday’s have been filled with the inspirational messages to carry on regardless of it all, but more importantly to find joy in the journey. That the whole reason we go through our trials is to test us, to make us a stronger person after the trial than we were before. To be a bush that is constantly cut down and pruned to later in the spring have fruitful blossoms. I can say with conviction that this last year has changed us and thankfully- for the better- isn’t the Lord smart?A year ago around today we were unemployed, then right before Halloween- Shane got a job- but we still hugely crippled financially, add on top- we still had a colicky baby (that lasted for 9 months), and all other “joys” that came along—in other words- this year was Hell. There have been multiple times when I have looked up to the sky and screamed- “Why?” And have thought, “When is this trial over?” or “When, oh when- can I start enjoying my baby?” “Where is the light at the end of the tunnel?” And things continued to get worse- to even more worse- and then in June- we finally got a shred of light in our hardship of a year.
If you’ve read this far- I’m impressed. I’ll try to keep this short. :D
We had no money, no savings, nothing. Rent was going up substantially at the end of the month, maxed out credit card and we had to move- but to where? Shane and I literally sat down one night and wrote out 4 options: 1- The kids and I move to SLC while Shane works for the summer and we asses after that. 2- We all move into Shane’s parents guest room (in S.G) and share one room with our baby that can’t sleep with any noise (the joy!) 3- We move in with Shane’s grandma (also in S.G) but had more room for our family. Or 4- Expect a miracle. In this category we wrote what we required: 3 bed, 2 bath, backyard, a park or pool nearby (with Shane always taking the car-this is essential) and a garage would be nice.
We fasted and prayed like crazy for weeks asking questions and seeking direction for our cloudy future. In the end- we knew we needed to stay in St. George, but didn’t know how anything would come to pass-and we waited for answers- that eventually came in one irritating and frustrating phrase: “Just wait and see”. Continuing to seek inspiration from the Spirit, I felt impressed to apply for housing that exceeded all of our requirements, that was affordable, but almost had a year long waiting list. A week after dropping off the paper work and two weeks before we had to move out of our apartment, I was called by our current rental place on Friday and they asked if we could move in on Monday. I immediately said yes, hung up the phone and balled buckets of tears. The Lord provided for us in a big way, not only were we getting option #4 to live on our own and to have a place of our own, but rent was also extremely affordable. And several months after this little miracle, and two weeks ago today- Shane was promoted to a salary position at his current job! The Lord knew what we needed and came through for us in all aspects of the word. It is an incredible feeling to be the recipient of such a life- changing miracle. To know, we did everything in my power to make something come to pass, and the Lord made up the difference.There’s a scripture somewhere that says something to the effect of…. You shall receive your blessings, after the trial of your faith— I know it to be true. I know that our faith and especially trust in the Lord’s timetable has been a HUGE struggle for me. And yet, I have learned, when I put my life, or my problem in the Lord’s hands, ask for help and have faith that he will help me - I know it will come to pass. When the Lord orchestrates our lives according to His will- things miraculously fall into place and it’s incredible!
We’re not completely out of the hole- our dang washer died this week (cha-ching) our utility bill is outrageous this month (cha-cha-ching) and car registration is due (cha-ching) and among all the other things that make up what we call life…it’s going to be tight for awhile. In the end, I know without a shadow of a doubt, that our needs are going to be met. That everything will work out the best way that it should. And when we submit to the Lord’s will- he will take care of us- better even than we thought we needed.
So yeah- I guess you could say-“All is Well” at our house too.