Some of you may have noticed my absence; in fact it's been about a 9 month
absence.... you guessed it- it's related to having Linkin. And soooo here we
go:
I'm reaching out to you professional mothers; the mother's who seem to have
it all under control, sunshine and rainbows all day- every day. Perfect kids,
perfect babies, what is your secret???
Link is hard. I hate documenting this on the blog, but seriously, I'm
struggling. I feel weak admitting this. My life in general is kicking my but.
Being unemployed (huge, long story for later) balancing life as a mother to
two, Link having colic- still-and extremely sensitive about sound/light, wifely
duties, prego-post weight, threat of moving with a career change, debt hovering
over our heads... the list goes on and on and on. Oh and for kicks, let's add-
day light savings!! Totally threw off my groove and my kids schedule which took
my months to finally balance out.
Advice column:
Having more than one kid- how do you keep the baby asleep with a toddler
running around the house? Lexie as a baby was easy, and the moment I put her
down for bed I was clanging pots and pans, playing my music loud I was not
quiet with her = she sleeps through almost everything. Link on the other hand,
as a baby he wouldn't stop crying and I did anything, ANYTHING to prevent him
from waking up- hence we were quiet, but not that quiet. And yet, you walk into
his room- he's awake! He could be dead asleep and then he'll hear Lexie's
voice, even her sneeze- he's up! I have the fan on in his room, the bathroom
fan on across the hall and heck, we live next to the freeway- it's not that
quiet at our house and yet- he's up! Advice ladies... how did you help your
baby be less sensitive?
Link has an older spirit; he's advanced for his age. He wants to move, crawl
and run after his sister bad, and to make matters worse- no cuddling- like
ever! And before he could crawl, all he would do is cry at me all day long. You
should see my arm muscles! Try lugging around 20 pounds (he weighs 10 lbs less
than Lexie!) of dead weight everywhere you go! Now that he's crawling I have
noticed he's happier, but during that same time- 6 teeth decided to come! Which
then led to emergency weaning because his razor sharp teeth were drawing blood-
yeah! (Note sarcasm here)Sometimes I just feel like screaming- Could I just catch
a break?
I'm exhausted, I'm tired. Ladies what is your secret? What pulls you through
the day? For me, it's knowing my hubby will be home in __X__ hours; sometimes
it's Lexie, but mostly, its prayer. I pray constantly. In fact, I don't think I
ever end a prayer; it's always in my heart.
Having two kids is kicking my but and yet I know, it can always be soooooo
much harder than it already is. My baby could be diagnosed with some illness,
an unknown problem or have cancer..... I KNOW things can always be much worse,
but the reason I share this-- the little problems, such as a baby not sleeping
and always crying or a toddler being naughty (never my Lexie though!) to let
all those mommies out there who think they are the only one struggling to know
that I, the mighty Morgan am struggling too- but I'm going to be okay. I keep
telling myself, "Everyday gets better," and "Tomorrow is a new
day" and the more I say it- the more I will believe it!
On a final note of lessons learned:
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I know this “trial” is temporary.
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I know that my Savior loves me and would never
give me a trial or hardship too hard to handle. So I know that I can handle
this a bit longer.
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I know the reason Lexie, my bubbly full of life
and happiness girlie, came first was to help me get through this trial. Link
can be in a total tizzy (wherever)- and she is the one who can pull him out of
it and turn the crabby/hyper ventilating baby into a happy baby.
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I know that Link is trying to teach my
compassion, patience and most of all- “rolling with the punches” and believe
me- I’m learning these lessons as FAST as I can so we can move on from this
trial.
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I know, in the end- Linkin is going to be fine,
I will be fine and yes- we’ll have another baby- but not today, this month, or
this year.
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I know that if you ask for help, and
understanding from others- you will get it.
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My faith has increased, the power of prayer
strengthened and my desire to read my scriptures daily has returned.
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I know that by drawing closer to the Savior, our
home will become a Heaven on Earth the home where my baby will feel safe.
I can make it through this trial and so can you! Loves and hugs to all those
who still might be reading… and really- any experiences or helpful advice is
certainly welcomed below!
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